I wish I could start this with something like, “I’m a positive person by nature,” but that’s not exactly the case. That’s not to say I see everything in a negative light, I see things for what they are most of the time. I’ve never looked at the past year and said it was particularly great or particularly bad. I’ve never looked at the upcoming year and said it would be a great one, or a bad one.
And then on January 1 this year, I was having a really horrible day. Most of it stemmed from having the older kids home for so long since they were on winter break. Caitlin is 14 and Christian is 12. They do not get along. At. All. It’s really rare when they do. Most of the time when they’re together, there’s tension in the room. I often have to break up fights or try and stop the nit-picking before it turns into a war.
I’d gone off by myself for a little while to purchase some books, and as I was leaving the bookstore, I got a phone call from Caitlin complaining about her brother being “annoying and stupid” or something. I lost it. I really lost it. I couldn’t even leave for an hour without getting a phone call from one of them complaining about their sibling? In the end, I said something pretty mean and Caitlin hung up on me. I didn’t go home right away because I needed to calm the heck down, but when I did, I was pretty much done with my entire family that day.
I didn’t really talk to any of them, Jason and Jess included. I even thought to myself if this is how 2009 was going to be, I was going back to bed until 2010. Of course I didn’t believe that one bad day would indicate a bad year coming.
Now? I’m not so sure. We’re 15 days in and things haven’t gotten much better. So far we’ve dealt with difficult kids (more than usual is seems), and a very uncomfortable child support/custody issue ripe with a lot of tension.
And then the sucker punch. For the second time in 6 months my husband was laid off. The first time back in August was scary. However, he was only out of work for 5 weeks. He also received a fairly decent severance package. This time, we’re not in as good of a position. He’d only been with this company for 3.5 months. Apparently the economy caused them to trim the fat, tighten the belt. I don’t know that I’m able to say anything else, so I guess I’ll leave it at that. It’s really unfortunate that the last person hired means first person out when layoff’s happen. There’s not anything that could have been done. It wasn’t because he’s a poor employee or slacking off. There’s just nothing that can be done. No way to save yourself when a company decides they need to save costs and you’re the lowest guy on the totem poll.
I’m hoping and praying that we’ve maxed out our trials for 2009. Maybe we can get the majority of the bad crap over with before February 1 and the rest of the year will be a dream. A good dream instead of the nightmare it’s shaping up to be.