Writing is Hard

Why is it that I want to write here, but can’t seem to do it with any kind of consistency?

If I’m being honest, it’s because I don’t feel I have anything of value to say. I’m a (mostly) stay-at-home mom. I have three kids, but two of them are adults and no longer live with us. I simply don’t think I’m that interesting.

Many things have changed since I started writing here eons ago. So in an effort to catch you up, let’s go back to the basics.

In order to reintroduce myself (which is hilarious because I’m guessing anyone that reads this already knows me) I’m going to post 10 facts about me.

  1. I’m a wife, a mother, a friend.
  2. I’m currently a second term PTA President at my youngest child’s elementary school.
  3. I have a very small, part time job at the elementary school.
  4. I’m a super proud MoM, meaning my middle “kid” is in the military.
  5. My oldest child is turning 21 this year.
  6. I have a ridiculous fan-girl love for Jared Leto. It’s embarrassing really.
  7. While I very much enjoy adult novels, I have a growing love of the Young Adult genre as well. I’m a fan of the Lightening Thief series. I loved The Maze Runner and plan to read the others. The Scorch Trials is sitting here waiting to be read. (Not just yet TST, I’ll get to you soon). I read the Hunger Games trilogy years ago. I love Harry Potter. I could go on, but you get the idea.
  8. I’m an introvert through and through.
  9. Penguins used to be my favorite animal. Now? Not so much. I don’t know what happened other than I guess I grew out of it. I do love me some hedgehogs and owls though.
  10. I love the Christmas season. I can’t stand decorating for it. Every year I say something along the lines of, “Let’s just skip it this year,” and everyone freaks the heck out.

There you have it. Hopefully I’ll be back soon. My husband and I are thinking of taking on a blogging challenge. I don’t think it’ll be a daily challenge, but maybe weekly? Anyhow, see you soon.

New Year, New Blog Post

I’m really terrible with blogging. Every January I feel the familiar pull of Hey! It’s a new year! Why not start blogging again?

Chances are, I might write a few posts this month and then forget about it. Then the next thing I know, it’ll be January 2016 and I’ll think, oh yeah, I have a blog. I should write something.

Whoa, wait. I just looked and I didn’t write even 1 single blog post in 2014.

So! What’s been up over the past 2 years? Oh, nothing much. Just doing life.

As of now, I have a daughter that is 20. She’s living her life on her own now. She’s got a full time job and big dreams for her future. I love her to pieces.

I have an 18 year old son going through his final year of high school. In 7 short months, he’ll be shipping off to boot camp. I’ve been asked a lot lately how I feel about my son enlisting in the Marine Corp. This isn’t something he decided recently. I’ve had a lot of time to get used to the idea. I’ve been feeling pretty good about it until last night. My cousin came over for dinner and a movie, and to spend a bit more time with us before he leaves for boot camp next week. He’s going into the Air Force. I couldn’t be more proud of him as well. But, I walked out with him to his car, gave him one last hug and watched him drive off into the future. He’s not even my kid and I was a mess. I can’t even begin to imagine what a total wreck I’ll be in July when it IS my own child. For now, I’ll just try and appreciate the last bit of my son’s “childhood,” and yes, I know he’s technically an adult. But, he’s still a high school student and my baby boy. He’s my man-child.

Then there’s the 9 year old. She’s in 4th grade and I’m starting to realize she’s going to be out of elementary school very soon. We only have the rest of this year and next. What? How? When… oh man. The days are long but the years are short. Too short.

Jason and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary in September. Come July, we will have been together 15 years. I’m still crazy about him.

So yeah. That’s about it. I can’t think of any other things to share right now. If I don’t make it back here until January 2016 allow me to say, Happy Easter, 4th of July, Halloween, Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas!

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Nurturing My Faith

I thought I’d pop in and give an update on how one of my “resolutions” has been going so far. Specifically my resolve to nurture my relationship with God.

I’m really happy to say I’ve read my Bible every single day this year so far. I haven’t missed a day. There were times I was out of town, and if I didn’t have my Bible with me, I discovered the One Year Bible online. In fact, I’ve been using Instagram as my accountability tool. I’m sure several people are annoyed by my daily pictures, but that doesn’t matter to me. It’s proof that I did it. You can follow along with me here if you’re interested. Some days I post verses that speak to me. Some days just the date and others, entire pages.

Because this is how I choose to start my day, if find myself dwelling on that day’s reading throughout the day. I’m more aware of my relationship with Him all day long. When things stress me out, I’m able to call back a verse that really speaks to me. The one that I use as a prayer most often, especially when I feel something is hopeless, or I’m simply afraid or overwhelmed is Psalm 55:23 … But as for me, I trust in you. I say this daily. It’s my constant prayer.

I also find that I talk to God more throughout the day. I check in with Him just to say thanks, or hi, or whatever. I’m no longer running to Him because I want something.

Another thing that I think has really helped is that we changed churches. It’s not that I didn’t like the one we were attending. I really did. But as I mentioned before, it was a chore going. We didn’t get involved in any way, shape or form. We went to church, then we went home and that was it.

I wasn’t sure the new church was for me at first. However, that first Sunday, the pastor really got my brain going. He’d said things I had never heard before, and I grew up going to Christian school and to church most of my life. His words challenged me. He got me thinking in ways I’ve never thought before. I wanted more. This past Sunday, we decided to try out a Sunday School class before service. My negative nelly side said “Oh my gosh. That’s going to be a LONG morning! 9:30 Sunday school and then 11 a.m. service? That’s just too much.” But I went because Jason wanted to. I loved it. I’m looking forward to next weekend. Going to church no longer feels like a chore that has to be gotten through.

I’m pleased to have stuck with my daily reading. My heart and mind are changing. I’m learning things I’ve never knew. I’m discovering just how patient and forgiving God is with us. Don’t believe me? Just read Judges 2:10-3:31. Israel disobeys the Lord over and over, yet he repeatedly rescues them. It doesn’t matter how many times they screw up. Every time they cry out to God, he saves them. Incredible! At some point, I’d kick them to the curb!

On March 29 I was asked, “Have you noticed any change since you started reading through the Bible daily?” I never answered that text message. I didn’t want to say no. I felt like I was a failure because that would have been my answer. It’s been almost 2 months and I can say yes, absolutely. It takes time. I’m so glad I’ve stuck with it. I’m glad that my day feels off if I wait too late in the day to do my reading. I finally replied to that text message this morning.

So there you have it. If you want to nurture your faith, start with the Word. Go to it daily. It’s taken me almost 5 months to really feel different. It was worth it. I encourage you to spend time studying his Word every single day.

Bullies – Not Just Targeting Kids

I know I said I’d be writing Part 4 of my Nurturing series, but I have something else on my mind. Besides, part 4 is proving fairly difficult to write.

I want to talk about bullies.

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1 [bool-ee]

noun

a blustering, quarrelsome, overbearing person who habitually badgers and intimidates smaller or weaker people.

verb
to act the bully toward; intimidate; domineer.
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When we think about bullies, it usually brings to mind children on the bus or playground at school. More often these days, we hear it in the context of someone taking their own lives because they’ve been a victim of relentless bullying for whatever reason. Most of us don’t think about adults being bullied. We tend to think that by the time we become adults, we all know better.
Well that simply isn’t true. Twice over the past few weeks, someone I know has been the victim a bully. I don’t think this person would have ever put the “Bully” label on it, but that doesn’t change the fact they were being intimidated by an overbearing adult. This person essentially agreed to work for free because the Corporate Bully (CB) was unhappy. CB was not pleased with some work this person did. He had been given every opportunity to see progress along the way, but ignored all communication. Once he saw the work he was angry. After realizing his lack of communication was a big part of the problem, he decided to carry on with the work but changed the terms agreed upon by both parties at the beginning. In the end, the person I know is getting the super short end of the stick, but in order to keep peace and get it over with, he agreed to CB’s terms. That means long hours put in and very little compensation.
Just because a person is louder and more forceful than you are doesn’t mean you need to take it lying down. Stand your ground, be strong and fight for yourself. I don’t mean to physically fight, but don’t back down from your principles.
Also, the next time you’re on the phone with a company who has irritated you, or you’re in a super long line and the person running the register is super slow, take a few cleansing breaths and don’t take out your frustration on that person. Don’t be the jerk at the restaurant who treats the server like total trash. Don’t yell at the person making your coffee too slowly for your liking at the coffee shop. If you do act like that, guess what? You’re being a bully.
Being a bully doesn’t make you respected. It doesn’t make you cool or likeable or popular. It makes you a sad, sorry, hated person If you know someone that needs help with bullying, here’s your one stop shop for resources on the subject. StopBullying.gov I would also like to direct your attention to thetrevorproject.org and itgetsbetter.org If you know someone struggling with bullies because of their sexual orientation.

The Year of Nurturing Pt. 3

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Now that I’ve discussed my intentions to nurture my faith and my marriage, I bring you to the next area I’d like to spend energy focusing on.

My next area is our home.

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I don’t know if I’m actually a terrible housekeeper, or if I just can’t keep up with the mess that 5 people living in a fairly small space create. Every surface is usually covered with random stuff. Dishes tend to sit in the sink longer than they really should. This is a direct result of having to hand wash the dishes. That’s the #1 job I absolutely hate doing. I put it off which (of course, duh!) makes it worse which makes me want to put it off some more. More often than not, the dishes from the previous night get washed as I’m making dinner. I’m not proud of that.

I don’t think I”ll ever have a totally clean and peaceful as long as our bedroom doubles as Jason’s office. I try to keep “my side” fairly clean, but it’s so easy to let clothes pile up on the floor when the rest of the room looks like a mess anyway. I know it sounds like I’m blaming my husband for the mess, but I’m not. It’s just the way it is. He spends all day at his desk and the very nature of his “office” is organized (sometimes) chaos.

Honestly, I could go on and on about how messy we are. I won’t do that to you. But what I intend to do is be more mindful of my surroundings. I’m trying to create the habit of taking something with me that doesn’t belong when I leave a room. I also try to remember to look around and if a task will take less than 5 minutes, just do it. It’s not easy, but I’m pretty tired of living in a mess all the time. I mean come on! I’m a stay at home mom and wife. All 3 of my kids are gone a large part of the day 5 days a week. It really shouldn’t be too difficult to stay on top of the housework during the week. I want to do better for me, for my husband and for my children.

I’ll have one more part in this series soon. It’s probably the area I struggle with the most. It’s the area of my life I’m least proud. It’s one of the most important aspects of my life that I really need to nurture.

Oh, a quick little update. I just want to share that so far (I know it’s only been 21 days) I’ve managed to do my daily bible reading. The reason I’m proud is that I’ve hit my first milestone. I lasted longer this year then I did last year.